It’s time to break the seal….I have neglected writing anything over the last couple of months and it’s like many things in life, the longer you put if off or step away from it the harder it is to get yourself started again. This is true not only for things we find difficult but also for things that we love.
In any event, my intentions were to resume writing for my blog in January and obviously that didn’t happen but it’s only the first week of February and yesterday was the Lunar New Year so I’m not going to beat myself up about it too much (trying to give myself more grace in this season).
So what were the “things” that kept me from writing? I could tell you that my family had been passing around a nasty flu bug that knocked me out of commission for a while (true), or that I was busy focusing my attention on my household (also true), but ultimately MY truth is that I am ashamed of one little thing that I didn’t feel I could avoid talking about. The truth that after successfully losing forty pounds between July and October 2018, I have gained at least half of it back already (I don’t really know the exact number because I have been terrified to step on a scale again).
I’m going to make my full confession sometime this month in a post I’m planning to title “Five Things NOT To Do After Successfully Losing Weight” and for that post I will force myself to get on the scale and see how bad the damage actually is but I assure you, it’s bad. It isn’t lost on me that I’m sitting here with a sleeve of Thin Mints on my desk even as I am writing this today but my hope is that when I sit down to assess where I am at, I will also have a plan to get myself back on track.
Okay, so now that the proverbial elephant in the room has been addressed, I want to talk about some of my reflections from 2018 and what I’m focusing on in 2019.
Last year was an incredible year for myself and my family. Our first full year living in our Yorba Linda “forever” home. We started growing some roots and building a foundation of faith in Jesus Christ. I lost a piece of my identity when I stopped taking on photography clients in lieu of spending more time with my family but I gained much much more.
The Good Stuff
Here are some things that I felt worked well in 2018:
- My relationship with Christ evolved significantly and has given me a peace and
senseof direction that I feel I was previously lacking;
- The HCG diet totally worked to help me lose weight (but only while I was strictly adhering to it);
- I played over 40 rounds of golf during the year which I think is the most I’ve ever played in one year before;
- I became closer to my husband through our faith and in particular going through “Rooted” together;
- I read a handful of personal development books which have inspired my life in various ways;
- I took significant action towards giving more of myself to others (e.g. serving at church, photographing foster youth, becoming a CASA)
- My focus was on God and my family over everything else
The Not-So-Good Stuff
Here are some things that I felt didn’t work for me in 2018:
- I spent WAY too much time and energy comparing myself to strangers on the Internet
- I made lots of promises to myself and started a lot of projects that I didn’t follow through with to completion;
- I didn’t create a household budget and was careless and wasteful in my spending;
- I lacked patience when it came to my children;
- I drove a wedge in my relationships with my mother and siblings;
- I did not develop any sort of consistent exercise habit or improve my physical flexibility in any way;
- I did little to cultivate the close friendships I desire
- I felt that I wasn’t flexing my creative muscles or growing as an artist
What’s to come….
I have big dreams for 2019 but rather than make a bunch of resolutions this year, I decided to try something different. I chose a word to live with for the year and my word is “stretch.” I’m actually taking the One Little Word workshop by Ali Edwards and will be sharing the work I do with that here on this blog so if you’re following along you can watch my experience with this word as it unfolds in my life.
In thinking about what I’ll be posting in the coming year (aside from the work I do in the #OLW workshop), I’m going to be spending time writing about the Crow’s Nest. We are getting ready to start planning a major remodel of our home and I’d like to document the entire process including design inspiration here. I’m also going to do a monthly Personal Development review, where I discuss a book I read or Podcast I love and any take-aways I plan to implement that were inspired by it in my own life. I’ll be doing a monthly wellness check-in post and I am imagining there will be posts periodically that covers stuff specific to being a mom.
Finally, in the coming weeks I am merging my photography site kccrow.com with this site and am planning to post my weekly photography project here. Thank you for joining me on this journey and if there is ever anything you’d like me to write about specifically, please let me know!